last week i was able to go to Jonathan Creek church camp. i loved it!!!!!! the service was great! you could tell God is doing and going to do great things :). i got to do many activities i haven't done before, for example being on a boat, going tubing. belly flop in a mud pit and go mountain biking. it was all a blast and i want to thank all the youth leaders and the youth and church as a whole for everything. i enjoyed being around a bunch of people who believed in God and not having to be afraid of offending somebody and being able to talk freely about God's word. i was able to give God everything this past week especially a burden i have carried for too long. I know my God is in control and his will will be done. i love my family dearly! more than they know. I'm sure they love me to even though they do not show it very well. we've had some rough spots here and there and in the middle of it now. its been a year or two since my parents divorced, yet it still feels like it was yesterday. we haven't been a close family and it been hard. we have a lot of tension in this family, but I'm trusting God that we can work through it because he knows his plans for me. the devil has been working on us real hard, but we are going to put that devil back in his place. this is our family God's family. hopefully we can reach out to our dad and our little brother to come to church. but only God knows. thank you all for your prayers and everything you've done to help no matter how big or small. just being here and listening has been a blessing. Thank you Lord for everything you've done and are going to do! not only in my life but everyone else as well.
well senior year and we have to turn in our laptops for good. so i wont be able to blog as much anymore. :/ guess I'll have to spend some more time at the library. lol. if it wasn't for my English class, i would not even know what a blog was. at first i wasn't up for it, then the more i blogged the more i liked it. it helped me more than i thought it would. Like now, I am pretty much typing what i am thinking. Blogging actually helps clears my head and helps me focus on things i need to be focused on like school. So if most my posts are rambling on and on, I apologize. so today will be my last blog for quite sometime, or at least until i am near a computer. one thing i can say "i will not miss this computer". i have had it for 4 years and it has been this biggest pain! of course all the schools programs, block and what not, did not help. They give us an opportunity to buy it for 100 dollars, but it is not worth it to me. besides i am saving up for college and hopefully, eventually get some type of car or truck that will get me from point A to point B. lately i have had to depend on everyone else for a ride to here or there, actually all my life i have and i don't like having to ask for some else to take time out of their day, just to take me some where i have to be. To me it feels selfish, even though they give me a ride because they want to. So i am very very Thankful too everyone who has and everyone who continues to do so. My words cannot thank you enough.
lol see, I went from laptops to blogging to cars and people giving me rides. anyhow until next time , this is clueless-Kriseea signing off :) C ya! " ha that sounds cool" Ok seriously God Bless! :))
The Florida trip was not really a vacation, but i went up there to help my cousin move down to Oboro :). When we first arrived we went to go eat at CiCi's Pizza, which was really good, then we went back to Britt's house and I showed her how to play ERS (Egyptian rat slap, cool card game). it was actually nice to get some time with her. The next morning I helped her pack she went around saying good bye to everybody and it was really hard for Britt to do, but she got through it. With tears still running down our faces, we stopped by Our Pawpa's grave. we had laid a type of stone bench that read " if tears could build a stair way I would walk right up to heaven and bring you back down here again" something like that I can't really remember. I got to thinking and I disagreed.. as much as i would like to see him again, I would not want to bring him back to this world. He is in God's hands now. He has no more pain, no more worries. His lungs are clear and healthy, no more chemo therapy or radiation. Why would I take him away from that?!? From God's arms. That would be selfish too bring him back to this cruel world so I could see him again. I know he is safe in heaven. :) I will just have to wait. anywho just food for thought. don't mean to down the quote, just depends on the viewpoint.
some people think of Scrooge. a mean money craving jerk. all he cares about is making more money for himself. I, myself don't like greedy people, but greedy people helped shape the economy today. the people who have greed for money make it possible for us to buy what we want. in order for the companies to make money they have to meet their costumers standards. then the costumers are satisfied because they got what they wanted for a decent price. when the costumers want something new and different, in order for the company to make more money they continue to make changes and new material so their costumers will keep buying. When that happens everybody is happy. they get more money and we get what we asked for.
In reality everybody is greedy. don't denie it. in some shape or form you are greedy. whether it be taking the last cookie before anybody else has a chance to get it or spending the last dollar on something you want rather than something you need, or donating it to a worthly cause. Most people who are rich earned it and dont give away money because it doesn't bring profit and is only a temporary fix. greed can go both ways. and quite frankly has helped this economy grow.
pay it forward-- ark-- one Act of Random Kindness--love--friendship--trust--hope--
if we send it on, we could change a lot of lives, maybe one day change the world. with one little action the chain will never stop. we may not be able to see it everyday but it is happening. one person just has to see you help someone else and when they see ya chance they will help someone else and so on and so forth. seeing isn't always believing. you can't see love, hope or even wind, does that mean you don't believe? you may claim in defense yes you can! But you don't, you see the reaction or actions of love or the wind blowing, but you don't see the actual thing.
we don't see a whole lot of homeless people but that doesn't mean we don't have any here. most countries do a good job of hiding it. that's the problem these days, we hide the problem instead of taking the opportunity to try and fix it because it is too much work. it is easier just to hide it all. the easiest way, is not always the best way out. we have just gotten lazy. we all want to make a difference in our lives, but in order to do that we have to strive to do so. we have to do something besides sit on a coach and play video games. we have to work for what we want. we have to earn it. but of course for some of the more wealthy people are less fortunate in my opinion. yes they may get everything they want, but they will never be happy. money can only buy temporary happiness. they don't know how to experience life for themselves, making life a lot harder. when we choose to work, we learn, we earn more and have a better chance for success. living life as close to the fullest as we can.
each day seems to go by faster and faster. the closer we get to living on our own and experience life for the first time. it is a mixed feeling, excitement and fear at the same time. excited to get out on our feet, but scared of falling down in the real world and not being able to get back up. where to go? what to do ? how to do it? what about a job? where to start first? it all bombards you at the same time. we want or plan to go to college, but how can we afford it without going into debt. its been hard trying to find a company to hire. some have no money to start off. parents try to help as much as they can. But don't let that stop you. some way some how, you can get through this, keep the faith, some how you will. unless of course you choose not to go anywhere, that is exactly what will happen. you have to try before you can fail. you have to fail before you can succeed with the exception in some cases. when you have failed, you learn from the mistake the caused the failure in the first place, like building a toy. the first time around you skip directions and try to put it together all by your self, when you think it is all put together, a piece is missing or it is not working like it is suppose to. finally we go back and look at the directions to assemble it right. there is no big jumbo lettered directions numbered from one to ten. except the 10 commandments along with the bible and yet still, people have a hard time following them. Not trying to down anybody because nobody is perfect, and that includes me: but even if we did have a big ole book that titled " Directions to Life" our first instinct is to throw the book down and try to put it together ourselves. we think " eh who needs directions. Directions are for wimps" we control our lives, our actions. there are people who try and help you, but its your choice whether you want to take it. you control what you do. no one else. we know right from wrong. we know when to turn around and walk away. one little action can go a long way
the first time i remember getting hurt was in california i think,lets say maybe 5or 6, we were visiting family and there house was sitting on top of a gigantic hill and the play ground was of course down the hill. i started running down the hill and the farther down i ran the faster i got. in a split second my feet slipped out from under me and i fell knees first. i looked down and i had rocks in my knee. my mom and dad cam running down too. but were smart enought not to jet down. my dad picked me and carried me back up the hill. BY the time we got to the house i had a pull of blood running down my leg, staining my socks. when we got in the house they washed off my knee and put a big ole bandaid on it. needless to say i was very soar the next couple of days.
other than that i have had many falls, scrape and brusies since then. more or less they are all hilarious, and could have won 10 thousands dollars on AFV.
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