Faith Prevails

i was afraid of freddy courger when i was little inturn making me parnoid in the dark.
i would get the intense feeling that someone was following me. Anytime i would be in the dark i would be sure to have another friend with me or something i can defend my self with, such as a bat. i couldn't walk down stairs without a flashlight in one hand and something to swing in the other. when it came time to go to bed, my arms, legs, hands and all would be covered. If i let it hang off the bed i believe that freddy would grab me. now that i look back i laugh everytime, thinking someone could actually come through walls and floors.so far i have not had anymore nightmares, but have had some crazy dreams.
and i love to watch scary movies as long as you cant tell they are fake and the plot of the story is good. other than that it is also fun to scare the person your sitting by when you think a good scary part is coming up. your nudge them and they scream like crazy, then they get mad at you and start nudging you back. ahh good times.

Everyone must take time to sit and watch the leaves turn.
Each individual needs a time to relax and observe were they are at and how far they've come. we all need a time to ourselves with no parents, no siblings or teachers. just some time alone on your front porch or in the grass; to find yourself at peace in the world and in yourself. it helps us understand the world and how it works. How time really seems to fly when your having fun, yet it doesn't really fly. when it seems to drag on and on, but agian it doesn't drag. it allows us to enjoy that moment point in time. that all the cares in the world fades away. the burdens, worrried. greif, anger and regret are no longer an isssue. For the first time you feel free. nobody is holding you back. you gain your confidence back and your sence of self worth. we start to look at the positive side of things instead of spazin out about all the negative possibilities. we laugh more than cry. humor instead of anger and tend not to hold grudges because all it does is put another stone on your shoulders. taking the time to think and relax yourself really makes a big difference especially when you have so much weight on your shoulders that you can barely walk.
if you want chill with a friend; you don't have to do it alone.

i would be miserable if i couldnt read or write.
i love reading especailly mistery books and christian books. i wouldnt have near the imagination as i do now. when reading im lost in a whole new world. everything around me dissolves into blurs and silence. when i use my imagination it becomes my story, my world, my moment of peace.
if i couldnt write i would definately fail school. i write a lot of my feelings on paper. whether im angry happy or sad, i get it off my chest by writing or singing it out loud. i have a habbit with holding a lot of things in. a lot of what i hold in is everything my friends say. unless they ask me to tell someone else, it never comes out oof my mouth again. but sometimes it can become a huge burden. in order to lift it off my shoulders i write it down on paper and then shred so i can finally relax a litttle. over all i am thankfull that i can read and write.

what does it mean?

is it important or not?
yes and no. the only reason it is important is because it has become part of a neccesity to live. In order to buy food, to pay for bills such as electricity and water, gas and heat. we have to pay doctor bills, car bills, insurance alot! medication and resaerch. clothes i can go on and on about the things we have to pay for.

how much is enough?
for me there is never enough money. we always need more because most of it goes to bills. we always need it to get groceries among other things. the only time yo9u have enough or more than enough is when you have so much money that you don't know what to do with it.

how does the lack of money impact life?
many people fall into to dept because they have to take out a mortgage on there house so they can keep their house and end up losing it anyway. many who cant pay bills or dept end up on the streets. many cant be treated for there condition or sickness. intern many people die everyday on the streets. many children don't have shoes to put on their feet or clothes on their back. sometimes they don't even have food to ease their stomachs.
money has a vary big impact on life today. even though it is very important to everyday lives. it is the biggest problem in America.



does it make the world go round?

My opinion yes. i think love is blind because you never really know until it smacks you in the face. It could be the person standing right in front of you and not have a clue. The person could be miles away and just happen to meet them on a trip or plane. For that matter might even be your best friend. I mean there is no sign to tell you "hey! here i am" you know?. Hints the blind part. In reality you literally can't see it. Like the wind. you can't see it, you can feel it; unless you have a bunch of trees in your yard, but thats beside the point. You feel it in your heart. Its an interesting journey.