Faith Prevails

God's Grace is so amazing! Even if it is the smallest thing or the most important. It humbles me. i feel a peace like never before, no worry, no hurt, just a humble peace about everything. It lets me know I am sitting in the Potter's hands. :). I am under his protection; I know He is here everyday watching over me. He continuously helps me learn from my mistakes, my actions, my words. It is humbling to know that i don't have to keep it a secret that i am a Believer and i am not ashamed to say it. I have friends who love and obey Christ in his word whole heartily. They have a loving family behind them to support them and i know they support me. They believe in me. that i can set my goals high and actually be able to reach them. They do not judge me for who I am. I can be myself.
To see others believe in God and surrender their hearts to His will is unbelievable! it  is a great experience. i have yet to figure out my calling in this world and strengthen my walk with Him. I know I want to follow Him with all my heart. I know that is where my heart belongs, in the palm of His hand to stay. He will never let me go. We are the ones who let him go.
There will be rough time no doubt, bit stand strong in the Lord and never give up hope. I know with His help I can make it through. I've made it this far. :) all Praise belongs to God. Thank You Lord. for the small things and the big. everything i have and everything i don't. every prayer that has been answered and everyone that hasn't. our trials and many more. Most of all the Cross.
You have a plan, all in Your time.

it is ironic how people tell us to be sure and tell people you love them everyday, but when you do, it can lose its true meaning.  when you say it and not actually mean it or say it automatically without thinking. the meaning behind it changes. your not saying I love you because you love the person,even though you truely may. the majority of the time we are saying it becasue they said it to you and it is a natural reaction to say it back. by no means am i saying don't tell them you love them everyday, just make sure you mean it when you say it. don't let "I Love You" become  just those 3 simple words. 

this is not directed towards anyone.. if i offend you, i am sorry.
we all have a life outside of church, yes?... that can be a problem. we have to realize that that doesn't mean God can't be apart of it.
for some God starts and stops at the church's front door. we pray before we eat at church or during the service with the pastor and then it stops there. we don't pray before we eat at school or work or smile at every person you see (a smile makes all the difference), even me, most of the time because we Think we don't have time. we say and think things half the time that doesn't need to be said or done. outside it is a whole new game. you're in a different atmosphere with an enormous variety of people, beliefs, religions, rituals, ceremonies all of it, but God stays the same. we are all excited to go to church because we are free to pray and speak about Jesus openly. our goal is to be excited about going outside the church and sharing God's Love and His word, His peace and comfort. so that we can plant that seed and He will help it grow. even in your enemies. to be the same person inside and outside of church. we are to be the example, not be invisible. God works everywhere. we need to become  F.R.O.G- Fully Rely On God. on the other hand He is not a crutch. he is not there Just for you to lean on. you have to do your part to. its not as easy as ask and you shall receive. there is a condition. If you do your part God will do his. if you feel him tugging at your heart to go talk to this person, don't ignore it, he has a reason and you may help this girl/boy in a big way or maybe she is there to help you. God works in mysterious ways. and you will never know unless you take up your cross and walk. we are to become one person as a whole, a christian. to walk the walk and talk the talk. not walk the line in between. Praise goes to God, not yourself, that becomes pride. Thank you Lord because i would not be able to write this if it wasn't for him. this popped in my head for a reason. i needed to share it.
with this God Bless all :)

Here lately Dad has beem getting picture frames and and placks the have some  really great quotes and verses. a while back we said that this house didn't feel like home or didn't have that homie feel. we didn't have any pictures of all of us on the wall or anything else for that matter. so he printed out some pictures and put then in frames he bought, when i came home i saw the frame and in the middle is had family in big bold capital letters and he had a variety between us. some funny some good and they all show the love he have that i didn't see before. i looked at dad laughed with joy and said that's awesome! it made my day that much brighter. we have a plaque the reads "it's not wanting what you don't have but wanting what you have" it is a good saying because we all want what we don't have, but don't want we do have or there is really no point in having it. we also have one that says a bible verse" As for me in my house, we will serve the Lord" i am very very happy that he bought that, i was surprised. i know that the Lord is with us. He has plans, i knew that before but i didn't want to get my hopes up. which sounds bad because everything works in his way not mine. i need to change my mind set, because God will never let me down. He has shown me that He has never left me, that He hears my cries, my prayers, my heart. He has blessed me with so much! I am grateful! thank you Lord. our home feels like home. i feel like a family. i feel the love i didn't before. :) I'm not broken because of the Lord. thank you!

i have recently figured out that managing work and school is not very fun. because the time in between you have to do homework, clean and whatever before you go to work. lately i have been working from 5 to close. we close at 12am and do all the cleaning afterwards which puts me home about 130 or if we are dead bout 1245 or so. then i have to get up at 640 in the morning! not use to that! so I'm a little sleep deprived, but with the Lords help i have been able to stay awake without being grumpy haha! of course it helps to see friends in the morning when i can :). so most of my time in between if it is not cleaning or homework....its nap time! ha i remember nap time in kindergarten, didn't think id actually be taking naps in the middle of the day after that.  hehe. any who welding is going pretty good. math on the other hand is half online ( i so did not know that) So e got laptops and hopefully i can catch up but for now i have to go to work...so enjoy you day week. God Bless thank you for reading my rambling

I like this quote because it is true in many ways. a lot of people believe that if you can't see it, it's not real. some are afraid to take a step further because they do not no where it will lead them. I believe without seeing, but sometimes i am one of those people who hesitates to step forward because she can't quite see whats ahead. i let myself think of all the possible situations that could happen good and bad. I've learned to pray about it to the good Lord and take that step of faith. i can think of two situations were i have done that. the first was the first time we moved away; which turned out to help us a lot. we where able to get a job and sign up for college classes. the second time was moving back home after moving back out. crazy i know. so far everything has gone smooth, we have our rough spots here and there, but we work it out. plus our brother gets to go to Vacation Bible School :) and he loves it. we haven't been back for too long an things are already showing hope. a renewed hope. i thank God for working in our lives and letting all of our paths cross. your prayers have been highly appreciated and we couldn't have done it without you, thank you. :) by you i mean all of you.

God i know you have plans for me and my family. i have no idea what they are but i know you have plans. our family has been torn in many directions, but i think it will start turning around soon. we are moving back into dads tomorrow and it stinks but it doesn't at the same time. We have been able to live with a great family for a week or two and watching and seeing the love they have not just for their family, but for God as well has been a great experience and with a lot of other families too. to know that our family can become that is a brand new hope. to know that even though we may be broken, God can mend our hearts in his time and in his way. he allows us to go through these trials because it allows us to grow closer to God and become his family. Than we can show others God through our actions not just our words. it will take time make no mistake, but do not lose hope in the process. it took me two years to give my burden to God and I'm glad i didn't wait any longer. my faith and my trust in Him has grown greatly, but i still have a lot to learn. so Lord i know your in this, i believe something good will come out it. please continue to be with dad and Lil man as we move back. i believe in you and in your word. also be with all the wonderful hands that have blessed us. Thank you Lord for everything. in Jesus name amen.

last week i was able to go to Jonathan Creek church camp. i loved it!!!!!! the service was great! you could tell God is doing and going to do great things :). i got to do many activities i haven't done before, for example being on a boat, going tubing. belly flop in a mud pit and go mountain biking. it was all a blast and i want to thank all the youth leaders and the youth and church as a whole for everything. i enjoyed being around a bunch of people who believed in God and not having to be afraid of offending somebody and being able to talk freely about God's word. i was able to give God everything this past week especially a burden i have carried for too long. I know my God is in control and his will will be done. i love my family dearly! more than they know. I'm sure they love me to even though they do not show it very well. we've had some rough spots here and there and in the middle of it now. its been a year or two since my parents divorced, yet it still feels like it was yesterday. we haven't been a close family and it been hard. we have a lot of tension in this family, but I'm trusting God that we can work through it because he knows his plans for me. the devil has been working on us real hard, but we are going to put that devil back in his place. this is our family God's family. hopefully we can reach out to our dad and our little brother to come to church. but only God knows.  thank you all for your prayers and everything you've done to help no matter how big or small. just being here and listening has been a blessing. Thank you Lord for everything you've done and are going to do! not only in my life but everyone else as well.

well senior year and we have to turn in our laptops for good. so i wont be able to blog as much anymore. :/ guess I'll have to spend some more time at the library. lol. if it wasn't for my English class, i would not even know what a blog was. at first i wasn't up for it, then the more i blogged the more i liked it. it helped me more than i thought it would. Like now, I am pretty much typing what i am thinking. Blogging actually helps clears my head and helps me focus on things i need to be focused on like school. So if most my posts are rambling on and on, I apologize. so today will be my last blog for quite sometime, or at least until i am near a computer. one thing i can say "i will not miss this computer". i have had it for 4 years and it has been this biggest pain! of course all the schools programs, block and what not, did not help.  They give us an opportunity to buy it for 100 dollars, but it is not worth it to me. besides i am saving up for college and hopefully, eventually get some type of car or truck that will get me from point A to point B. lately i have had to depend on everyone else for a ride to here or there, actually all my life i have and i don't like having to ask for some else to take time out of their day, just to take me some where i have to be. To me it feels selfish, even though they give me a ride because they want to. So i am very very Thankful too everyone who has and everyone who continues to do so. My words cannot thank you enough.
lol see, I went from laptops to blogging to cars and people giving me rides. anyhow until next time , this is clueless-Kriseea signing off :) C ya! " ha that sounds cool" Ok seriously God Bless! :))

The Florida trip was not really a vacation, but i went up there to help my cousin move down to Oboro :). When we first arrived we went to go eat at CiCi's Pizza, which was really good, then we went back to Britt's house and I showed her how to play ERS (Egyptian rat slap, cool card game). it was actually nice to get some time with her. The next morning I helped her pack she went around saying good bye to everybody and it was really hard for Britt to do, but she got through it. With tears still running down our faces, we stopped by Our Pawpa's grave. we had laid a type of stone bench that read " if tears could build a stair way I would walk right up to heaven and bring you back down here again" something like that I can't really remember. I got to thinking and I disagreed.. as much as i would like to see him again, I would not want to bring him back to this world. He is in God's hands now. He has no more pain, no more worries. His lungs are clear and healthy, no more chemo therapy or radiation. Why would I take him away from that?!? From God's arms. That would be selfish too bring him back to this cruel world so I could see him again. I know he is safe in heaven. :) I will just have to wait. anywho just food for thought. don't mean to down the quote, just depends on the viewpoint.

some people think of Scrooge. a mean money craving jerk. all he cares about is making more money for himself. I, myself don't like greedy people, but greedy people helped shape the economy today. the people who have greed for money make it possible for us to buy what we want. in order for the companies to make money they have to meet their costumers standards. then the costumers are satisfied because they got what they wanted for a decent price. when the costumers want something new and different, in order for the company to make more money they continue to make changes and new material so their costumers will keep buying. When that happens everybody is happy. they get more money and we get what we asked for.
In reality everybody is greedy. don't denie it. in some shape or form you are greedy. whether it be taking the last cookie before anybody else has a chance to get it or spending the last dollar on something you want rather than something you need, or donating it to a worthly cause. Most people who are rich earned it and dont give away money because it doesn't bring profit and is only a temporary fix. greed can go both ways. and quite frankly has helped this economy grow.

pay it forward-- ark-- one Act of Random Kindness--love--friendship--trust--hope--
if we send it on, we could change a lot of lives, maybe one day change the world. with one little action the chain will never stop. we may not be able to see it everyday but it is happening. one person just has to see you help someone else and when they see ya chance they will help someone else and so on and so forth. seeing isn't always believing. you can't see love, hope or even wind, does that mean you don't believe? you may claim in defense yes you can! But you don't, you see the reaction or actions of love or the wind blowing, but you don't see the actual thing.
we don't see a whole lot of homeless people but that doesn't mean we don't have any here. most countries do a good job of hiding it. that's the problem these days, we hide the problem instead of taking the opportunity to try and fix it because it is too much work. it is easier just to hide it all. the easiest way, is not always the best way out. we have just gotten lazy. we all want to make a difference in our lives, but in order to do that we have to strive to do so. we have to do something besides sit on a coach and play video games. we have to work for what we want. we have to earn it. but of course for some of the more wealthy people are less fortunate in my opinion. yes they may get everything they want, but they will never be happy. money can only buy temporary happiness. they don't know how to experience life for themselves, making life a lot harder. when we choose to work, we learn, we earn more and have a better chance for success. living life as close to the fullest as we can.

each day seems to go by faster and faster. the closer we get to living on our own and experience life for the first time. it is a mixed feeling, excitement and fear at the same time. excited to get out on our feet, but scared of falling down in the real world and not being able to get back up. where to go? what to do ? how to do it? what about a job? where to start first? it all bombards you at the same time. we want or plan to go to college, but how can we afford it without going into debt. its been hard trying to find a company to hire. some have no money to start off. parents try to help as much as they can. But don't let that stop you. some way some how, you can get through this, keep the faith, some how you will. unless of course you choose not to go anywhere, that is exactly what will happen. you have to try before you can fail. you have to fail before you can succeed with the exception in some cases. when you have failed, you learn from the mistake the caused the failure in the first place, like building a toy. the first time around you skip directions and try to put it together all by your self, when you think it is all put together, a piece is missing or it is not working like it is suppose to. finally we go back and look at the directions to assemble it right. there is no big jumbo lettered directions numbered from one to ten. except the 10 commandments along with the bible and yet still, people have a hard time following them. Not trying to down anybody because nobody is perfect, and that includes me: but even if we did have a big ole book that titled " Directions to Life" our first instinct is to throw the book down and try to put it together ourselves. we think " eh who needs directions. Directions are for wimps" we control our lives, our actions. there are people who try and help you, but its your choice whether you want to take it. you control what you do. no one else. we know right from wrong. we know when to turn around and walk away. one little action can go a long way

the first time i remember getting hurt was in california i think,lets say maybe 5or 6, we were visiting family and there house was sitting on top of a gigantic hill and the play ground was of course down the hill. i started running down the hill and the farther down i ran the faster i got. in a split second my feet slipped out from under me and i fell knees first. i looked down and i had rocks in my knee. my mom and dad cam running down too. but were smart enought not to jet down. my dad picked me and carried me back up the hill. BY the time we got to the house i had a pull of blood running down my leg, staining my socks. when we got in the house they washed off my knee and put a big ole bandaid on it. needless to say i was very soar the next couple of days.
other than that i have had many falls, scrape and brusies since then. more or less they are all hilarious, and could have won 10 thousands dollars on AFV.

i am thankful for an extordinary God who has been by my side and for everyday he blesses me and my family.
i am thankful for my family as well, including all my teachers that have helped me get throught the years. i have done it without them.
i am thankful to have a roof over my head and is able to come home everyday to a family.
i am thankful everyday i am alive.
everyday my friends, teachers, preachers and everyone else that wakes up everyday.
if i had a chance to go back, i wouldn't change a thing.
i am thankful that i can go around and help everyone i can.
for the soldiers that are keeping our country free and safe.
For a great church family
and much much more!!!
what are you thankful for?

How much, how much
Do you really know
How much, how much
Well let me tell you
How much, how much
You are loved

These words go out to anyone
Who's ever felt so unlovable
I'd just like to say to you
That lie is so not true
This message is for the broken down
They say you can't turn your life around
No matter what you do
Well that lie is so not true


How much, how much
Do you really know
How much, how much
Well let me tell you
How much, how much
You are loved

Take the depths of the deepest ocean and go deeper
Take the top of the tallest tower and go higher
Take the best day that you've ever had
Try to imagine better than that
And it still don't come close
To how much you are loved

Don't worry about what you've done
God's love goes out to everyone
And here's the wonderful, beautiful truth
That includes me and you
So let it find you where you are
Wrap it's arms around your weary heart
And all the love you're longing for
You'll find all that love and more

How much, how much
Do you really know
How much, how much
Well let me tell you
How much, how much
You are loved

How much do you really know?
think about it...

spring break was a blast.
got to hang out with dad and even mom too. i passed my asvab test for the air force and can't wait to see what i can do. i also went to church camp with my new church i recently started going to and it was awesome. we played doge ball and frisbee golf. we went conooing and did skits for the sermans and the services we awesome. that was the most fun i have ever had since my family reunion in colorado. now i cant wait to graduate!! only a couple more weeks.

1 lIVE FOR GOD
2 AIRFORCE ENGINEER
3 FINISH COLLEGE
4 GET A SUCCESSFUL JOB
5 BUY A GOOD HOUSE
6 GO MISSIONARY TRIP
7 GO ON MORE MISSIONARY TRIPS
8 HELP PEOPLE ALL OVER THE WORLD
9 TEACH KIDS ABOUT JESUS
10 MAKE NEW FRIENDS EVERYWHERE I GO
11 BUILD SHELTERS
12 GO ON VACATION WITH FRIENDS
13 VISIT OLD TEACHERS
14 BECOME A BETTER PERSON
15 MAKE THE BEST OF ANY SITUATION
16 REMEMBER TO PRAISE GOD IN EVERYTHING I DO
17 CONTROL MY ATTITUDE
18 CONTROL MY TEMPER
19 LIVE TO FULLEST
20 CONTUE MOVING FORWARD

Pain makes me laugh. Not only my pain, but my friends as well. I really don't know why I laugh at my friends pain, but I always make sure they are OK before and after i have had my laugh.
I laugh at my pain because that is how I cope with it. When I fractured my pinkie in middle school, I laughed so hard i cried. I didn't cry because my pinkie hurt, I cried because I laughed so hard, my stomach hurt. Actually just the other day my sister smacked me in the face a one pound bag of pepperoni and I was rolling on the floor. I didn't even realize that my nose was bleeding were my glasses had cut it. My nose didn't hurt, my stomach did because couldn't breathe. It stayed taut and wouldn't relax.
I make jokes about my pain, especially to the person who caused it. My pain is rarely serious, its because me or my sister were doing something stupid. Most of the time it is an accident. I have a lot of funny stories about me and my family falling, smashing into doors, and hitting each other on accident. It is funny, whether we get hurt or not because I laugh either way.